Halo, its me your favorite grandchild. Its been more than 4 years since you passed away. When you sick i just prayed i hope you going away as soon as possible because i cannot seeing you in pain. Seeing horrible family, i cannot accept that you forgot me, you forgot my name, you forgot that you are the only one who cares on me.
I hope you going away as soon as possible because i cannot seing you in silence, just breathing, with all of those medicine, oxygen support and every single thing on your body.
But then i realized, i dont have anyone on my side. I dont have someone for support me, put warm blanket, burn obat nyamuk, cook my favorite meals.
One day iam riding my honda vario who u bought for, im riding in tears, cannot hold my pain. I just sit down beside your grave, burst in tears. I just felt that iam your 6 years girl, who had terrible days.
I remember everyday when iam sick, i got fever, you always bring me back into your side, when i got herpest who make my lips bernanah and berborok, just you. You sleep beside me, cook bubur and buy selusin sedotan. Bring me to hospital. Ngeluarin my poop cause i got wasir.
I realized, since you passed away, my life just awful, everything ruining my day. Then i am thinking, maybe its all because no one pray for me, pray for my healty and wealthy. No one cry when iam sad, no one cry when iam sick, no one. Being human and born this way are not what i want. But being your grandchild is my favorite phase in this motherfucking world. I do alot of things to make you happy, to give you better life, to paid all of your hardwork for our family, then when you letting go. I just wondering, why iam still here ?
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