God made me dealing with storm and thunder (just like thor)

 ive been struggle since i was newborn. Illness and stuff.

If you read down my post on this blog u will know what i have been done.

Whats new ?

The newest things is how someone i loved, i trust, someone who i put him towards me, i give all mine. Broke me into a tiny pieces.

Not just mentally, physicly too.

I ve been lost everything. 

Family, friends, money and love. 

repeatedly at the lowest position in my life cycle.

Iam sick and go alone at hospital

I almost got raped

Then i got raped by someone i tought he is the goblet of my suffer

I got dumped

Someone tortured my body

Tortured my feelings then told me that im nothing. Worthless. Not worth it for him. 

After all those pain i held alone. Motherfucking alone, keep all the fault on me, shut my mouth off about it.

Iam lonely in this path, trying to figured another side looking for nice one. Everyone trying to knew me but they are not, they dont lived in my mind, i lonely in this path while people build romance things about sunsets and sunrise, the sky wreck me down.

But im here, dealing with the storm and hurricane. Finding through myself in the core of chaos. Breathing and smilling.

Univers make me dealing with the shore and the rocks, hoping me dying, i burn my self to knock it down. They forgot where diamond come from. 

Everythings ruin me, choking me, bite my tongue.

And im still here.

Do you know what make me still standing here ?

My faith.

Not for god, legend, myths, star constellations or what the hell is that.

It just because my faith towards myself.

Cz i believe i born with this name, and this name don't depend on destiny written by other things.

This name write the own destiny.