Weird way.

 I wanna love you in a weird way. Because of course I'm weird, I'm not like women in general. You say the woman you are with likes your broad chest but I don't. 

I like your slender back and fat belly.

 Your ex may like your lovely smile, but I love your blackheaded nose. Other women may like the smell of perfume mixed with your sweats, but I like the lingering smell of cigarettes on your lips. I love your voice when you just wake up. Sounds like a direction  inviting to come home. 

Homey. 

I want to love you in a weird way. It's as weird as pinching your chest and stomach. It's as weird as tickling your armpit. As weird as suddenly pinching your cheek tightly. It's as weird as suddenly biting your neck when we ride a motorcycle. I want to love you in a weird way because you do too.

You don't like the curves of my face, you like what's inside my head. (because you're a zombie) You don't like my body shape, but you like the way I giggle. Sometimes i woke up in the middle of the night and get short of breath for no reason. 

Sometimes I cry suddenly, sometimes it hurts suddenly. Maybe it's because I sleep with worried. Worried that the lights suddenly went out and everything was dark. Worried I was alone, worried I'd been delusional all along. Worried all my dreams are real. Worried about the things I feared would happen. That Doesn't happen when I get your hands when I'm trying to reach for something in between my sleep.

Everyone never understands, the life I live is bitter, and I want to give up dozens of times. Luckily I always have a reason and believe I can get through it. Cause I'd like to have more time to spend behind your bike distracting you while driving. In your car seat while carpooled karaoke. Or open two cans of beer using teeth. Reading the zodiac, or eating sushi at a restaurant in a tipsy face. Or sleep in the cold without a blanket with you. I want to do it a million times.

I want to love you in a weird way, because that's you. You are not simple, you are complex, impulsive, stubborn and annoying. 

I want to love you in a weird way because you're stupid, feeling all-knowing, quirky and warm. 

I want to love you in a weird way Because you are indifferent, feel the most self-righteous and understanding. 

I want to love you in a weird way because I feel resentful and my heart feels warm and full at the same time. 

I want to love you in a weird way, because that's how I met you.